Appearances

Last Friday we took Amelia to the Children's Hospital in Detroit to get her head evaluated.  When she was born, she had to be vacuumed out, which pulled on her neck and hindered her from looking to both sides.  She favored the right, which made a bit of a flat spot on the back of her head since we always looked the same way when she slept.  After physical therapy, the doctor said to just keep an eye on the flat spot to make sure that it was rounding out over time.  The last time I went to the doctor, I asked about her head and she said that just in case, we should go get her evaluated to see if she would need a helmet.  On Friday they measured her head, scanned it, and did an x-ray and determined that her head does have a bit of a flat spot but it is not severe.  They said it was up to us whether or not she gets a helmet to form her head.  I wish they had just told us yes or no because it's so hard to make a decision...  We weighed out all the pros and cons.  She would have to wear it for 6 months...all through the summer :(

Through this decision I saw a flaw in myself called vanity...  I was worried what other people would think of her.  I was worried about all the questions I would get at places like church, the grocery store, vacations, friends houses, etc.  I had the idea in my head that somehow it would make her seem as if she's not smart and has something wrong with her.

With or without a helmet, Amelia is God's perfect creation.  It doesn't matter whether she wears a helmet has a flat spot or anything else.  God made her that way for a reason to bring himself glory.  I shouldn't get so caught up on appearances because it shouldn't matter to me what other people think of her, or me for that matter.

We decided not to get the helmet, since her head wasn't severe and since it's not a gaurantee that after 6 months it would even help.  It only helps about 50% of kids...  I'm glad we went through the process though since God had a lesson for me in it!